The Blue wave crashed through
snapping me out of my fog
Every day is a battle
Fighting to survive
It costs so much to live
mental health comes crashing down
mind is broken, body is breaking down
Yet we still have to exist
No relief in sight, money drying up
work slowing down
caregiving family taking time away
it all builds up, day to day
Until the wave
It’s just the beginning
but for the first time I could breathe
Holding my breath for a decade
not even realizing the toll
When you are surviving for so long
You don’t even realize it
trauma becomes normal
life goes on
but doesn’t thrive
each day goes by and you just exist
for the last ten years, everything has been chaos
our children only know mayhem and horror
We barely remember the before times
Will life be the same again?
I don’t even remember how it was before
my brain was barley hanging on, like it was under water
fighting for air
Turning off the news, and turning off the noise
the Orange dominates
consumes all around him
like a black hold in space, sucking up the air in the room
Nothing can stop it
Until the wave crashed through
Sweeping the countryside, a new frontier
new beginnings on the horizion
I could come up for air
forgetting what it felt like
Finally relaxing just a little bit
Could it be over soon?
Is help on the way?
we have a semblance of hope
looking ahead
my children have a future
good still exists
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